I just got back from church camp a few days ago. During the week, I really started thinking about college, and my future in general. I only have 2 years left of high school, and then boom, its here. Since then, my mind has been swimming with questions about which college I should go to, what I should study, and whether or not I should even go to college at all. Then worry settled in, along with questions of doubt and fear.
What if I don't graduate?
What if I'm not good enough for college?
I'm not smart enough.
I won't find friends.
I'll chicken out.
The thoughts were clouding my brain. I knew I had to get rid of them. So God led me to pick up my Bible and head to the woods.
I walked for a little while, finally finding a place to open my Bible. I turned to Isaiah 45.
I will go before you and will level the mountains; I will break down gates of bronze and cut through bars of iron. I will give you hidden treasures, riches stored in secret places, so that you may know that I am the Lord, the God of Israel, who summons you by name.I closed my Bible and after a little while, headed back to my house. Along the way, I walked through a small clearing that was full of green grass. Yet in the middle, was a single red leaf. It stuck out, so I picked it up. As I was holding on to it, the Lord spoke to my heart.
This leaf didn't stew and worry about when it would be released. It didn't question Me about when it would travel to a new destination. It patiently waited for me to release it from its home. My Daughter, don't worry about when I will release you. I have you where I want you to be, and I will hold you. When I am done preparing you, I will release you to travel to a new destination, but now is not the time. Do not fear. Just as I said in My Word, "I will give you hidden treasures, riches stored in secret places, so that you may know that I am the Lord, the God of Israel, who summoned you by name."
My Savior handed me a treasure.
A small, perfectly designed leaf to let me know that He is in control of where I will go.
He is Lord.
